Wasted Love

Small reminders

A silver earring

Bent at the post

A fading bruise

The TV

Blabbering

About Football 

In the other room

How easy was it

To take my love

Earn my trust

Entering my reality

Like a dream

Just to escape

Like a thief

In the night

Don't worry

I stopped

Holding my breath

Scratching my skin

Missing your presence

Crying myself to sleep

It took me years 

To finally realize

That 

Loving someone

Isn't always enough.

~Amber C. Smith (Autumn 2013)

Hearts

We are all so fragile

Aching from

Day to day

Waiting to be set aflame

With purpose and meaning

Hiding our hearts

Cupped in our hands 

Like a sweet secret

We are afraid to share

But want so badly to

My limbs are heavy

My heart is swollen

I want to hold 

Everyone I have

Ever 

Loved

Close to my

Bruised chest

Whispering 

You are beautiful

You are loved

Please accept this

Moment in time

Let it carry you

Because it is all so

Fucking fleeting.

~Amber C.Smith

My Bloody Hell

Lyrics for Anxious Bench song

Here it comes 

The hazy sun

Shedding light 

On all that's wrong

Whiskey soaked sheets

Apologies trapped by teeth

The night makes easy company

Chorus:

Don't try to save me 

I'm too far gone

Don't try to touch me

My edges are too sharp

Leaving you bloody

And breaking your heart

Don't try to save me 

Don't try to save me

These ghosts I keep

As secrets fade slowly

Slaying all this doubt

And all I want is now

Fuck the future anyhow

What has it ever given me 

But disappointment 

And anxiety

Chorus

Come with me

We'll travel to the sea

Let the salt water cleanse

These sins out of me

Transcending from this hell

We have made our reality

Or watch as all hope

Disappears from me

Chorus

~Amber C. Smith 2013