The Catalyst
For my Catharsis
Shivering and shaking
While
Standing at the Precipice
Will
I slide into
The abyss of my own self doubt
Waiting
For the karmic retribution
I know I deserve
Sabotaging
All in my life
That is beautiful and good
Trying to reclaim
What was lost
From my childhood
The sense of adventure
The trusting heart
The need to be loved
Forced at too tender of an age
To become the responsible one
Once hateful and bitter
About what I missed out on
I can now relate
Almost sympathize
With the need to escape
From what is expected of me
Not knowing who or what
I am supposed to be
Daily losing to the fight
That rages inside my mind
I succumb to the darkness
Shedding my tears secretly
Please don't hold or comfort me
That just makes the pain more real
And the show must go on....
~Amber C. Smith
