Saturday, January 15, 2022

Fucked Fate

 

Being from the sunshine state 

Has fucked my fate 

With seasonal depression in the Carolinas

Being asked by my abusive grandfather at 12 

If I really needed to eat that ice cream 

Amongst all the other teasing 

Of my skinniest of all time body phases

Fucked my fate with my body image

I still recoil when my belly is touched 

Especially at the stretch marks 

Left behind by two pregnancies

When this alone should be celebrated 

Being sexually assaulted by someone I know

Fucked my fate with building trust 

Being the daughter of two addicts  

Fucked my fate with drug & alcohol use

It’s a very cautious dance

I have to choose my vices wisely

Needing to control every situation as a child

Can leave you spiraling out of control as an adult

Cycles have been broken

Almost taking me with them

Words have been spoken

That will forever wound my soul

I grow stronger every day

Learning to love myself

Along the way

So don’t come to me 

With your pleasantries 

Unveil your truth and scars

Our time here is finite

If it isn’t raw and honest 

Is it even worth it?

💫Amber Comber

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