That Song

Maybe the howling never stopped

You just learned how to numb the pain

And quiet the voices in your head

I would watch you

Close your eyes

Always 

At the same time

Always

At the same part

To Neil Young's Old Man

Trying to stop the waterfall

That exhausted you your 

Whole fucking life

I know you hated your dad

For the same reasons I hated you

I made peace with those demons

My love grew louder than the hate

Your ghost tried to swallow me

After you passed away

I would lie awake at night

Praying I didn't become just like you

As I drank more whiskey and 

Swallowed another pill

Knowing I would never 

Understand

My sadness or yours

I almost slipped away with you

Asking for redemption 

Every foggy morning

Now I just let the dam break

Every time I hear Old Man

Not caring who sees me 

Knowing the tears are healing

Remembering that music saves 

That bar lights will never

Nourish me like sunlight

That you loved me 

More than yourself

And forgiveness is 

Salve for the soul.

~Amber Comber