Wednesday, October 8, 2014

Blood Moon


want to remember this sunset
How the pink clouds caressed
The high voltage lines
How I never felt so fucking alone
My cheeks stained salty
Walking these railroad tracks
With all direction gone
I bleed with the Blood Moon
How can that not be magic?
Dipping my fair skin
Marred with past sins
Into these murky waters 
To come out clean 
Leaves me in awe
Every time...

~Amber Comber


Sunday, September 28, 2014

Penny For Your Thougts

She collected wheat pennies
Her eyes would sparkle 
When I handed her one
I was always in search of them
Just so I could see her light
The sadness lingered around her
With an air so thick 
I often got lost in it
I could see her struggle
Trying to shake it off with
That Insane laugh of hers
Always reassuring me 
Everything was okay
Her lips and eyes
Lying every time 
With such classic 
Beauty and grace
She made it easy 
To believe 
Then one day
She
Was
Gone
No goodbyes 
No explanations 
Family asking if I had seen her
Not nearly as alarmed as I was
They were use to these episodes
She disappeared quite often 
Escaping her current reality for
The Blue Ridge Mountains
There was talk of her seedy past
The old boyfriend who dealt meth
Trying to kick her own addictions
But always getting lured back in
I ran into her years later 
She acted as if nothing happened
Oblivious to any worry she caused
Her eyes had grown tired
She had given up the fight
Exchanging pleasantries
We hugged one another
Goodbye
I knew that was the last time
I would see her face. 

~Amber C. Smith (Autumn 2014)














Sunday, August 31, 2014

Fall (Consumption Casualties lyrics)

Down the hole I go
Will anyone ever know
Grasping to a dream
That kills my reality

Every time I fall
At least I see the stars
Asphalt and the sky
Sing a lullaby

I twist and turn to find my way
Try to escape the traps they lay
Gingerly walk this wicked trail
Lost and alone looking for home
Falling in your arms
Safe from all that harms
Whisper in my ear
The future begins right here

Every time I fall
At least I see the stars
Asphalt and the sky
Sing a lullaby

The doubts they scream so loud
My mind it can't escape
The ghosts that haunt us now
Always out of reach 
But all too real
Burn it to the ground
Make way for new growth
A Forest lush with hope

Every time I fall
At least I see the stars
Asphalt and the sky
Sing a lullaby

~Amber C. Smith (August 2014)





Wednesday, July 23, 2014

"One day I will find the right words, and they will be simple." ~Jack Kerouac 

I was born in the same town you died in
I took my first breath in Saint Anthony's hospital
Four years after you took your last at the same hospital 
I became obsessed with you at 13
Reading, living, dreaming of your
words
Surrounded by chaos 
In search of adventure
Burning my candle at both ends
Falling too hard
Loving too deeply
Always trying to escape
The gnawing discontent
Watching my loved ones
Struggle with their demons
While trying to control my own
Was a painful existence
I watched the bottle destroy
Too many people I loved 
I fled from this town known as
"God's Waiting Room"
Before it could claim my soul
21 years old crossing the bridge
With tears in my eyes
And a hole tearing through my heart
Coming back home is never easy
And I've been gone too long
It's sad to watch the ones you love
Killing themselves slowly
I visited your old house today on 10th avenue
It felt so lonely
I had the Kerouac special at the Flamingo 
6oz of cheap beer and a shot of whiskey
Hoping it would help ease the pain
Funny how that works 
Loathing something so much 
Yet finding comfort in it
I hope in the end we all truly find peace
I hope in the end we all feel loved
I hope in the end we are released
From all the pain, sadness, and regret 
That we numb ourselves from daily.
~Amber Comber 













Monday, May 12, 2014

Vacant Space

Some days I feel as empty
As this vacant space 
Torn linoleum
Dust
Debris
Exposed wires
Left for no one
Bare boned 
Frayed nerves
Skin inside out
Frightened to be touched
I want to fill this hollowness
To drown out the voices
Screaming of doubt
I want to be enough
For the blue and brown eyes
Staring back at me
But I feel
I am always 
Falling
Short

~Amber C. Smith (May 2014)



Tuesday, May 6, 2014

Longing for the City

New York I've become so lovesick
Missing everything about you
You took my breath away 
At Grand Central Station
Chelsea, Coney Island, and Brooklyn
Still have pieces of my heart
The random subway shows
The collective energy of people
That buzzes a swirls down
Each and every city block
The thought of the musicians
The amazing poets
The aspiring artists
Who once stood
Where I know stand
Make my knees weak 
And my heart flutter
I can see the history 
Hear the untold stories
Seeping out of every building
You have so much to say
I breathe electric 
With each and every step
Hungry to take you all in
Cathedrals, parks, rooftop sunsets
I could live here my whole life
And never know all of you
I long to return 
To soak you in
Once again.

~Amber C. Smith (May 2014)



Monday, April 7, 2014

Tonight (Consumption Casualties Lyrics)

Feeling all immortal
Acting so dumb
Hating who I've been
And what I've become

Chrous:
Please stay tonight 
Hold me in your light
Wrap me up tight
Just love me tonight

Careless with my needs
So selfish with my wants
All apologies
Won't redeem me

Chorus

Ripe with promises
And Full of regrets
Your judgement
Hangs over my head

Chorus

My knees are bruised 
From kneeling so long
Have I repented enough
For your love 

Chorus