Unbridled

Hop in
Let me take you for a ride
Moon is high
It’s the perfect time
Windows open
Hands on my thighs
You devour me with your eyes

The world blurs and
Time stands still and
Nothing feels more real
We push and pull
Bend and break
Forming a new shape

Leave me broken X’s 2

No need to worry
I’ve got lady luck on my side
I’ve run from the devil
Fast enough just to get by
Never cared what you thought
I’m gonna do it anyway
Saving my mistakes for a rainy day

Right now is the perfect time...
💫Amber Comber 

April in Charlotte

I feel the urgency
Like the buds begging
To blossom for Spring
The green that
Lovingly blankets
Everything
That was once
Left bare...

Your voice trips
Through the telephone
Dancing in my ear
Like Coltrane’s
Saxophone
Seductively soothing
But you’re not here...

I lay awake
Like I always do
Fingers aching
To find you
And trace the
Softness
Of your skin...

This peace I find
Beside you
Is something that
I never knew
And learning to hold
It ever so lightly
Is one of the
Hardest things
I’ve ever had to do.

~Amber Comber

Come Undone

When you unravel
From the weight of it all
Call your lover
And get angry
Because you’re not
Wrapped in his arms
Get three hours sleep
And starve yourself
Until there’s dumplings
Scream
Into your microphone
Until your throat
Feels as raw
As your heart
Ride your bicycle
Chasing the light
That is left
Before the darkness
Leaves you sleepless
Once again
Fighting to see through
The tears that leave
Your cheeks stained
With the red dust
From your wheels
Sliding down the
Gravel roads
Until breathless
And throwing up
Your heartbeat
Letting the fireflies
Guide you home
So you can
Finally
Come undone...
~Amber Comber
#loss #greif #words #biketherapy #sunset #poetry

Diffraction

These resentments
That sharpen like
Knives
Stuck inside me
Make my vision
Cloudy and
More difficult to see
They stab, wound, and scar
But the light
Rushes in
Illuminating
The darkness
Reminding me
Not to feed it again.
~Amber Comber
#words #writing #writingcommunity #poetry #poem #poems #poetrycommunity #healing

Three of Swords

I refuse to repeat
The same
Fucking story
I am choosing
My own adventure
Don’t worry
I have taken notes
I will not go down
The same
Dark paths
I will look
For new growth
Under
Luminous moonlight
Following the river
Whilst healing
These old wounds
I acknowledge
The pain and hurt
I have studied
Every lesson
It is time to
Forgive my failures
And love myself.
~Amber Comber

Murmur

Do my scars and
Softness scare you
Are you searching
For the nearest exit door
Does the truth I speak
Hurt your ears
The light I shed
Illuminate your fears
Wanting more
Is not a bad thing
I always plan to leave
With more than I bring
I have settled for too long
To accept anything less
To keep this heart
Satiated
Beating
And
Alive
In my chest...
~Amber Comber

No Savior

I’m not your
Fucking savior
I can barely
Save myself
I know
This world
Is full of
Reasons
For you to
Need my help
But I’m no
Beacon of light
I’m fighting
My own fight
I’ve given
All I can give
It’s your choice
To finally
Live.
~Amber Comber

Haze

Sometimes
I need it out of focus
Memories like knives
Should be kept dull
A softness
That once
Seemed welcoming
Left me screaming
On the hard asphalt
My forgiving heart
Is marred with scars
And learning to love
And forgive myself
Has been the hardest
Lesson of all.

~Amber Comber

Redemption

Redemption
Calls to me
Every
Sleepless
Night
Asking
Am I finally ready
To forgive those
Who helped me
Lose myself
In the anger
Wound myself
In the hurt
Whilst
Destroying all
Of my self-worth
I listen
I negotiate
I release what I can
But there’s power
In knowing when
And how to let go
So my healing
Can begin.

~Amber Comber

All Roads Lead to Where You Are:

He said I looked genuinely happy
And how good that was
Because he knows
It’s been fucking years
Two decades of friendship
Will definitely acquaint you with
The good, the bad, and the fighting
For your fucking life
Kind of times
In the last months
I ate Valium
Like candy
Drank alcohol
Just so I could
Stumble away
From the wreckage
That was my life
Leaving a trail of
Blood
Bruises &
Bitterness
Behind me
Let me tell you
There’s nothing like
Finally welcoming
A lush
Southern Spring
That makes you
REALLY
BELIEVE
In self resurrection.
~Amber Comber

"I learned that hunger is a symptom of adopting bad behavior..."

He loved the smell of me
The way my lips tasted
Like whiskey
He said
I anchored him
Even though
I was lost
At sea...

I pissed you out for weeks
With the alcohol and pills
Does the body
Remember
What you’ve
Tried to forget
Lamenting a loss
You didn’t regret?

~Amber Comber

Moon Amour

Untie these knots &
Illuminate my way
Every step
I question
I just want to bask
In the stillness of
Knowing I am exactly
Where I need to be.

Entangled

Your hand 

Lingers 

Between 

My thighs

Getting lost 

In your eyes

Is my favorite 

Place to be

My mind 

Becomes quiet 

Time stands still

And nothing 

Feels

More real

We push and pull

Bend and break

Only to create

A more

Beautiful shape 

Tell me it’s worth

Fighting for...

~Amber Comber

Tenebrosity

It feeds on

My darkness 

Hides in my light

Whispers

In my ear

In the dead

Of the night

What have you done?

What have you done?

Speak my name &

I’ll cut out your tongue.

~Amber Comber 

Balancing Shadow & Light

Forever seeking clarity

I find my boots

Balancing these rails

I have walked 

Them endlessly 

Baptizing them 

With my tears

My heart swells

Have bruised 

My chest and

My mind is never

Completely at rest

My failures 

Are like monsters

That hover 

In the shadows

Waiting to find

The moment 

Of weakness

They have been 

Impatiently 

Waiting for...

~Amber Comber

Hold Fast

Baptize me in all that’s holy

Watch it roll away form me

Seeking light is for the worthy

And I doubt myself daily

Chorus: 

Neon lights

Hold on tight

Let me drive

Through the night

Lose control 

Make me while

Surrender 

Leave it all behind 

Hide behind your smile

Sacrifice what you believe 

I know underneath 

You’re just as lost as me

Chorus: 

Neon lights

Hold on tight

Let me drive

Through the night

Lose control 

Make me while

Surrender 

Leave it all behind 

Lose mask before 

They create another

Society is to blame

Hold Fast 

To one another 

Before it all fades away

~Amber Comber (Trash Room Lyrics)

Diving Dreams

I walk through this wounded world

And carry home the things I can’t unsee

A weight that can get so heavy

I feverishly find ways to break free

Exhaustingly illuminating 

My dark side of mind

Searching for a balance 

That’s always hard to find

The past weaves 

Into the future 

So fast   

That I forget

To breathe 

In the present

I am learning 

To fill my lungs 

With enough air

To become weightless 

And dive below 

This wreckage...

#poetry

~Amber Comber

Surrender

Look at that one leaf

Afraid to surrender

Holding on

To the only thing

It knows

Sometimes 

You have to let go 

Swan dive into 

The possibility 

That there is more 

Magic 

Than you can 

Imagine 

So much

Beauty to see

An unconditional 

Amount of

Love 

To give and receive 

And you are worthy 

Of it all

All you have to do

Is trust the fall.

~Amber Comber